Junior year has almost come to an end and it's time to make the last AP Lang blog post of the year. I have to say that I'm actually going to miss making these blog posts, as dorky as that may sound. But more than anything else, I am definitely going to miss AP Lang. I have to say that this was one of the best classes I've ever taken. I don't know if any other students actually read other people's blogs (I know Miss Amodie does) but if you do, I'm going to miss you guys a lot. My favorite moments of this year were walking into class every period A and talking about our problems, complaining about other teachers, whining about writing essays, eating lunch upstairs, and so on. Some days I would honestly just come into school so I wouldn't miss our class.
So here's to next year. I hope something else will get me to come to school.
In all seriousness, the main focus of this blog is supposed to be about our childhood dreams and how we are going to achieve them. The first thing that came to my mind was that I didn't have any childhood dreams. I honestly can't remember wanting to be anything or do something special when I grew older. I do have to say that now, I really only have one goal. I want to be happy.
I have always wanted to be happy, really, truly, happy. Ever since I was a little kid, I have always been miserable. I can remember when I was around five years old and I would be playing with other kids at recess, and I remember having friends but I would always feel detached and separate from everyone else. I still feel like that, in a generally lesser sense, but I still feel like that. I always thought that I was missing something from my life that I could get from other people.
I have learned that other people aren't going to make me happy. I have to make myself happy. Now, how am I going to do that? I have absolutely no idea, and I'm completely okay with that. I'm trying to be happy every day and just take things for how they are. So if I'm trying, that's as good as the real thing. I'm going to be okay in the end someday so all I can do is relax and wait for that to happen. That's how I'm going to fulfill my childhood dream.